Wow. It's been a couple of days. I've been soooo busy. My birthday was Saturday so I have had a lot going on!! I met Carrie Underwood! She's absolutely wonderful! My dad got me, my best friend, my sister, and her best friend tickets to the concert!!! BY FAR THE BEST CONCERT EVERRR. Thank you daddy! I had a wonderful birthdayy all together. Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes!
So have you ever just sat down, and realized how wonderful God is? Well, if you haven't, now is the time to do it. He rescued me tonight. He picked me up in His arms and just held me as I cried! It was beautiful. He ripped out every soul tie, and root planted in my soul from Day 1. I have never felt so free. I haven't been the person I've made myself out to be. I'm apologizing now for all of the people who I've disappointed in the past. I'm here [right now] to tell you that I've changed, and only for the better. For any of you guys who have never had a Holy Ghost experience, you're missing out. I thought there was NO way God could love me after all of the mistakes I've made, but He did. That's the exact reason why He died on the cross. He knew my mistakes before I even made them. He say the family tree inside of my soul that was slowly, yet rapidly, growing, and commanded it to come down. And it did. It's gone. I no longer live based on an addiction, or a lie. I'M BEAUTIFUL TO MY GOD, and He is all who matters. All of the rest, you're just an opinion.
I never realized how much one thing can take a huge toll on your life. One small incident from when I was 11 could have such a huge impact on what I believe, and what I've done. This one lady that I've known my whole life, she saw my mistakes in a vision before she even talked to me!!! She said that when you speak life and plant seeds in someone's life, you become a part of them. You see their hurts, their mistakes, and their future all in a vision. Everything she spoke over me was true and it was one of the greatest feelings ever! It was one of the times when I thought I was alone, but she understood completely!!
I took a step of faith tonight. I just recently made the worship [hoorayyyyy] at my church for the youth group :) well, I want to be the best that I can be, leader and person wise. So I took a bigggg step out of my comfort zone. I gave my testimony to the church. I told my DARKEST secret. One that nobody knew but a few closest friends. Well, I was delivered. MAJORLY. I've never been so happy, and satisfied with my life until tonight. This great couple from Georgia came, and the man, named Heith, spoke. He gave his testimony. He came unprepared to speak, but I'm so glad he did! He moved me! Well, they opened up the alter for anyone who wanted to confess something. Once you confess your sins upon the Lord, you are cleansed. Well, we had SEVERAL youth get up and confess things such as lust, drugs, cigarettes, and all kinds of stuff. Well, as they kept talking, my heart began pounding. It was almost like vomit about to come out of me. We went and prayed and then I stayed up there and begin speaking. Words just started pouring out of me. I apologized to people, and I explained my hurts. And then I was set free. I felt a ripping in my soul, and then all of a sudden I was free. No more bondage. No more ties to people that I don't want to be a part of my life. Tomorrow, my very favorite adult is coming to help rid stuff from my room, car, everything...that reminds me of the people I was once held captive of. I wish I could explain to you the way this "free" feeling is I'm experiencing. It's by far the greatest!!! I'm saying right now, that I'm going to be different. I'm going to make better decisions and I'm just going to be an overall better person. No more messing around. It's time to get serious.
"For the vision is yet for an appointed time; but at the end it will speak and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry. Behold the proud, is sould is not upright in him; but the just shall live by faith." --Habakkuk 2:3-4
